What if I stumble?


A psalm of David, from a time he was suffering distress.  This is just an excerpt, but this entire psalm is quoted 7 different times in the New Testament as being prophetic of the Gospel of Jesus Christ!  David, for all his faults, certainly got one thing right – whether things were going well, or he was struggling, he always knew to go to the Lord for comfort and guidance.  Here, he is in big trouble – Save me, O God, for the floodwaters are up to my neck.  Whatever it is He is struggling with, it is urgent!!  As urgent (to him) as one who is about to be overcome by a flood and drown.  He wants God’s help and he wants it NOW!  

I am exhausted from crying for help; my throat is parched. My eyes are swollen with weeping, waiting for my God to help me.   We’ve all gotten to the point where we feel like God should have done something for us (ME!) by now.  We’ve prayed, and we’ve prayed, but nothing has happened.  We have our list of all the things we have been doing on our own, our reasons why God SHOULD have intervened by now!!  And you know what God??  I’m tired of waiting!!!  I want what I ant and I want it now!!  (Big part of the reason I wound up in recovery!!)

Those who hate me without cause outnumber the hairs on my head.   Jesus himself quotes this in the gospel of John – “This fulfills what is written in their Scriptures: ‘They hated me without cause.’”John‬ ‭15:25‬ ‭NLT‬‬

Many enemies try to destroy me with lies, demanding that I give back what I didn’t steal. O God, you know how foolish I am; my sins cannot be hidden from you.   You know what God??  I know I am a sinner.  You know I’m a sinner.  I am a bumbling fool.  I’m a liar, a cheat, a drunk, and a thief.  But how dare they say I did that!!  But they can say that, because once we’ve established that we are capable of the things we do, what aren’t we capable of?  And really – what aren’t we capable of?  One thing I learned from my dark journeys, I am capable of just about anything.  

Don’t let those who trust in you be ashamed because of me, O Sovereign LORD of Heaven’s Armies. Don’t let me cause them to be humiliated, O God of Israel. For I endure insults for your sake; humiliation is written all over my face. Even my own brothers pretend they don’t know me; they treat me like a stranger.   For me, this is one of my strongest motivations for staying on point in my recovery.  Now that I have claimed to have Christ in me, and I’m to the point of helping lead others in recovery, what if I stumble??  I rely on the power that raised my savior from the dead on a daily basis to turn me from temptations that exist EVERY DAY.  The world that I fell into on my own powers still waits for me to fall again.  If I fall again, it’s not just a reflection in me now.  It’s a reflection to the unbelieving world of why they reject Christ.  It justifies their mocking and gives them the high ground, because if I, having accepted, named and claimed the power of Christ Jesus as my Lord and Savior fall into the daily temptation of living and acting as all those who have rejected Christ Jesus, then what exactly am I believing in?  What is it I am telling them to believe in?  Having claimed Jesus, I AM the light to the world of his love and power.  So, what am I proclaiming by the example of my actions and how I now live?  Because whatever the answer to that question, that is the light (or darkness) I am shining.  Above all, I am to be who and what I claim to be.  A child of God, saved and redeemed by the blood of Jesus Christ.

 

“Save me, O God, for the floodwaters are up to my neck. Deeper and deeper I sink into the mire; I can’t find a foothold. I am in deep water, and the floods overwhelm me. I am exhausted from crying for help; my throat is parched. My eyes are swollen with weeping, waiting for my God to help me. Those who hate me without cause outnumber the hairs on my head. Many enemies try to destroy me with lies, demanding that I give back what I didn’t steal. O God, you know how foolish I am; my sins cannot be hidden from you. Don’t let those who trust in you be ashamed because of me, O Sovereign LORD of Heaven’s Armies. Don’t let me cause them to be humiliated, O God of Israel. For I endure insults for your sake; humiliation is written all over my face. Even my own brothers pretend they don’t know me; they treat me like a stranger. Passion for your house has consumed me, and the insults of those who insult you have fallen on me. When I weep and fast, they scoff at me. When I dress in burlap to show sorrow, they make fun of me. I am the favorite topic of town gossip, and all the drunks sing about me.”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭69:1-12‬ ‭NLT‬‬

 

http://bible.com/116/psa.69.1-12.nlt

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