“So he came again to Cana in Galilee, where he had made the water wine. And at Capernaum there was an official whose son was ill. When this man heard that Jesus had come from Judea to Galilee, he went to him and asked him to come down and heal his son, for he was at the point of death. So Jesus said to him, “Unless you see signs and wonders you will not believe.” The official said to him, “Sir, come down before my child dies.” Jesus said to him, “Go; your son will live.” The man believed the word that Jesus spoke to him and went on his way. As he was going down, his servants met him and told him that his son was recovering. So he asked them the hour when he began to get better, and they said to him, “Yesterday at the seventh hour the fever left him.” The father knew that was the hour when Jesus had said to him, “Your son will live.” And he himself believed, and all his household. This was now the second sign that Jesus did when he had come from Judea to Galilee.”
John 4:46-54 ESV
Still turning water into wine here…
Mary, despite not actually asking her son to fix the problem of the wine running out, clearly shows a trust in him to be able to do something. So when Jesus says to her “What’s that for us?”, “His mother said to the servants, “Do whatever he tells you.” So Jesus looks around and notices there were six stone water jars there for the Jewish rites of purification, each holding twenty or thirty gallons. He notices these six stone jars, or water pots. These water pots are empty, they are for the mikvahs. They use these water pots to fill the mikvahs. If we ever were to visit Jerusalem, you will see these around. Mikvahs are dug into the ground, into the stone, with steps leading into him. What they are is baptistries. They are not bathtubs, they are not ancient hot tubs. They are used for ritual purification. Several times a week. an observant Jew would properly fill his mikvah with the proper kind of water blessed, by the rabbi. Then he would go down into the water, repeat the prayers, dunk himself seven times, and observe the rituals that he might be ceremonially pure.
So at this wedding we had some of these stone water pots used for filling the mikvah. They are empty. Each one has between 20-30 gallons of capacity. If you fill six of them it’s between 120 to 180 gallons of water, so let’s call it 150 gallons here. So Jesus tells says to the servants “Fill the jars with water.” To which I can imagine these servants rolling their eyes. “Oh brother. Another super religious guy. Instead of partying all night we’re all going to have to go down to the mikvah and get baptized again.” But they do it. It’s going to take a while. Remember, they don’t have hoses or spigots to use and easily fill these things up. This required drawing the water out of the well, it takes a lot of time and effort to draw 150 gallons of water.
“And they filled them up to the brim. And he said to them, “Now draw some out and take it to the master of the feast.” Ok Jesus. Sounds a little strange. But they do it anyway. They take water out of the stone jar for ritual purification. They put it in a wine cup and take it to the chief steward, but somewhere in transit, somewhere along the way, a miracle happens. The water has turned to wine.
The steward doesn’t know anything that’s been going on. He just knows the wine has run out. But the servants come to him, “Here you go, try this out.” “So they took it. When the master of the feast tasted the water now become wine, and did not know where it came from (though the servants who had drawn the water knew), the master of the feast called the bridegroom and said to him, “Everyone serves the good wine first, and when people have drunk freely, then the poor wine. But you have kept the good wine until now.” Think about the baffled bridegroom. He has no idea what the steward is talking about. All he knows is that he’s heard rumors that they are running out of wine, and all of a sudden now there’s tons of it. The master of the feast is poking him in the side, grinning – “Oh, you’ve really fooled us! You kept the very best wine until now!” To which the bridegroom said what? “Praise the Lord!!??”
But Jesus has done it!! The little wedding in Cana of Galilee, on the verge of catastrophe, suddenly is supplied with 1000 bottles of Cabernet Sauvignon. And Jesus gives a wink to his mom. “This miraculous sign at Cana in Galilee was the first time Jesus revealed his glory. And his disciples believed in him.” John 2:11 NLT. And John says Jesus revealed his glory. Jesus revealed his glory, which means his beauty. Imagine being one his 6 disciples there. Imagine following this rabbi, just starting to follow, then you see the sign, you see the water turned to water.
And Jesus revealed his beauty. This is a beautiful story. There is something fun, something whimsical about this story. Later, most of Jesus’ miracles are framed in a life and death scenario. A leper, his life ebbing away. Disciples in a boat, threatened with imminent death from a storm. Here’s a little girl who’s in fact already died. There’s a deep, dark frame around a lot of Jesus’ miracles. But this one, there’s none of that. Yes, we might want to save the family from social embarrassment, but there is no way this is crucial to anything. This is just a whimsical miracle, where Jesus, in order to keep the wedding going, gives a sign. It’s not just a party trick, it’s a sign.
What’s the sign pointing to? In the Old Testament, the abundance of wine was often symbolic of God’s favor and blessing. Likewise, ruined vineyards and a scarcity of wine was symbolic of the absence of God. So as the prophets began to imagine the time when God would come through his Messiah, anticipating the day when messiah would come and bring the righteous reign of God with all of its blessing and abundance, they use language like this – “…the vats shall overflow with wine…” Joel 2:24 ESV, “the mountains shall drip sweet wine, and all the hills shall flow with it.” Amos 9:13 ESV, “On this mountain the Lord of hosts will make for all peoples a feast of rich food, a feast of well-aged wine…” Isaiah 25:6 ESV. It’s as if they are saying Oh, and the rivers will flow with wine…
That’s the anticipation, the prophetic vision. So, in a beautiful and artistic way, Jesus, in turning the water to wine and providing an abundance of it, has announced that the reign of God at last has arrived. Remember, in the story, the steward says to the bridegroom But you have kept the good wine until now. John’s gospel is very sophisticated. It’s as if he knows and trusts his readers will read this over and over in a thoughtful way, and he hides all these gems in it. So, Jesus is also the bridegroom, is he not? Jesus is the bridegroom…
So think of it like this – in previous days, in earlier times Israel had had some good wine. In the days of Moses, when they are brought out of Egypt, and God is present in a cloud by day and fire by night, giving them the Torah, they had some good wine. In the days of David, when the kingdom was coming and the sweet psalmist of Israel was reigning and ruling, they had some good wine. But then, the exile. For about 500 years, all you could say is, they have no wine. The wine has run out. The good days are gone, they have no wine.
But now…JESUS IS ON THE SCENE!!! Not only is there wine, it’s the best wine!!! We can say, We had some good times with Moses, we had some good times with David, but the BEST has been saved for now!! AMEN!
When Jesus is on the scene, good things are about to happen. Why was Jesus at this wedding? Because he was invited! Hey, remember that carpenter guy over in Nazareth? He did some work for us, he’s a cool guy. What’s his name? Oh yeah, Yeshua of Nazareth, 101 Olive Street, Nazareth. And just because they invited Jesus, they got the miracle. So when you’re going through your struggle, your thing, your situation, your problem, and you’re going through it, invite Jesus. JESUS, want to come to my party, my mess, my marriage, my addiction, my life, my business, my thing? I got this thing going on Jesus, want to come? And don’t tell Jesus what to do, just invite him. Because you never know what Jesus is going to do. Think about it, nobody would have thought I know what to do, we’ll invite Jesus and he’ll perform a miracle and turn all this water into wine. Nobody would have ever dreamed that up. Only Jesus. So don’t tell Jesus what to do, just invite him to your thing. Because where Jesus shows up good things are about to happen. But Jesus tends to show up where he’s invited.
So invite him.
Back in John’s telling of the first recorded miracle of Jesus, turning water into wine…
So yes, On the third day there was a wedding at Cana in Galilee. The third day as in Tuesday, as in Sunday, Monday, Tuesday…also as in the doubly blessed third day from Genesis, a doubly blessed day that must be the day the Jews in Israel would have to be married on. But never forget…and John will not let you forget, the third day is also the day Christ himself rose from the dead…
On the third day there was a wedding at Cana in Galilee. Cana of Galilee. Funny thing about Cana of Galilee is, we know exactly where this is. You can still visit Cana today. It’s only 5 miles from Nazareth. Which probably tells us exactly why Jesus was invited to this wedding. Because he was known in the community, he was local. Yes, let’s invite Yeshua, the carpenter, remember him, he fixed our steps and built the gazebo a couple years ago. Let’s invite him. Jesus was invited, his mom was invited, his disciples were invited. Not because they were Jesus’s disciples but also because they, too, were known.
But Jesus only has six disciples at this point. This is the very beginning of his ministry. He’s got Andrew, Peter, James, John, Phillip, and Nathanael. Nathanael specifically has just joined the day before. He has just become a disciple of Jesus, and Jesus had told him “You believe because I told you I saw you under the fig tree. You will see greater things than that.” John 1:50 NIV. Better hold onto your hat, you’re going to see some awesome things. And sure enough, the next day they are at the wedding in Cana, and Nathanael will something truly amazing.
It’s a Jewish wedding of the first century. And we need to understand about Jewish weddings, or we might be confused. When we think of a wedding, we think of a quick ceremony followed by a wedding reception. But this is not a reception with mints and nuts and cake and punch in a plastic cup. This is a feast that will go for days. This is not a 20 minute ceremony followed by an hour long reception. You would have the ceremony, the bride and groom would disappear for a short time (not for pictures), the happy, blushing couple would return and the feast would begin!
It sounds crazy, but that’s how it was done. Jesus is at one of these first century weddings. They’ve had the vows, the happy couple has disappeared into the tent, now they’ve come back, and now it’s time to start several days of feasting. But no sooner had they got started, a real catastrophe happened. In a shame and honor based culture, which is typical of the east, including first century Israel, things like weddings have to come off right or it brings great shame upon the family. What happened here was, they ran out of wine. If you run out of wine, it is a catastrophe. Because when you have a feast that’s supposed to run for three days, if you run out of wine, people go home. Well, that’s that!! People begin to drift away, and what’s supposed to be a several day feast is over by the afternoon. It’s very embarrassing, the shame could linger within the family for generations – “That’s that family that tried to have a wedding! That didn’t work out, they ran out of wine and everybody left!! LOL”
So they ran out of wine and are the verge of a social catastrophe. Jesus’s mother is there with Jesus, her eldest son, and simply observes They have no wine. Notice that she’s not requesting for Jesus to do anything. This is not a request. Mary is not saying “Jesus fix this.” She’s simply making a whispered observation laden with pity. “Oh my goodness. They’ve ran out of wine, I feel so sorry for them. How embarrassing. How did they let this happen? They have no wine.” In our English translations Jesus’ response is rendered like this – Woman, what does this have to do with me? My hour has not yet come. What is actually said here in the Greek is apparently at least a little enigmatic, obscure, and difficult to understand. This comes across in our translations as a rebuff, but I don’t think that’s what happening at all. It doesn’t fit, Mary has not asked Jesus to do anything, she has just observed that they were, in fact, out of wine. NT Wright says we would benefit greatly from a simple punctuation change – Woman? What! Has this to do with me? Or how about this. Jesus response is really, if we could understand, more like this – “What’s that for us? I’ve got time. I can take care of that.”
Jesus says My hour has not yet come. Jesus knows that an hour will come when he can not work. The hour of darkness. The hour that he’s betrayed and turned over to the Romans. The hour that he’s crucified. But Jesus knows that’s a ways off. So Mary says oh no They have no wine, Jesus responds and says “What’s that for us? We can take care of that. I’ve got the tine. I’m not in a rush. I can handle this.”
Here’s an example so we can better understand. Imagine you’re in the grocery store, heading home after church to get your true worship on and watch some football, and at the front of the line is a young mother buying groceries, formula and diapers for her baby. Except she is coming up a couple of dollars short of being able to pay for what she has. And now she’s embarrassed, because there is a line of people in line behind her. She’s slowing the line down, and I mean, kickoff is in fifteen minutes! The back of her neck is white hot from the glowering stares behind her. This young mother is both embarrassed and a little desperate, because she needs those groceries. At which point your spouse whispers “She has no money.” So you grab a couple of bucks out of your wallet, discreetly head to the front of the line and give it to the cashier. “Here’s the rest of the money. I’ve got this covered.” Because, after all, what’s a couple of dollars? What’s that for us? We can take care of it.
That’s what’s happening here. That’s exactly what Jesus is doing. Mary says They have no wine. Jesus says No big deal. What’s that for us? He’s not saying “That’s not my problem.” What Jesus is saying here is “That’s no problem.” It’s all in how you hear the idiom, and there’s all the difference in the world.
How many times do we see others in certain situations and walk away without helping, telling ourselves “That’s not my problem. What’s that got to do with me?” But really, “Whats that for us?” It’s so easy for us to turn our backs and walk away. I do it everyday. But, again, “What’s that for us? We can handle that.” Can’t we?
“On the third day there was a wedding at Cana in Galilee, and the mother of Jesus was there. Jesus also was invited to the wedding with his disciples. When the wine ran out, the mother of Jesus said to him, “They have no wine.” And Jesus said to her, “Woman, what does this have to do with me? My hour has not yet come.” His mother said to the servants, “Do whatever he tells you.” Now there were six stone water jars there for the Jewish rites of purification, each holding twenty or thirty gallons. Jesus said to the servants, “Fill the jars with water.” And they filled them up to the brim. And he said to them, “Now draw some out and take it to the master of the feast.” So they took it. When the master of the feast tasted the water now become wine, and did not know where it came from (though the servants who had drawn the water knew), the master of the feast called the bridegroom and said to him, “Everyone serves the good wine first, and when people have drunk freely, then the poor wine. But you have kept the good wine until now.” This, the first of his signs, Jesus did at Cana in Galilee, and manifested his glory. And his disciples believed in him.” John 2:1-11 ESV
“They tell me to be discreet, for all intended purposes, they tell me revenge is sweet, and from where they stand I’m sure it is. But I feel nothing for their game where beauty goes unrecognized. All I feel are heat and flame, and all I see are dark eyes.” Bob Dylan.
Jesus wants to teach us a brand new way of looking at life with eyes of wonder, love and acceptance so that you can have bright eyes and a bright soul. I’ve used this quote before, but here it is again – “Christianity is about forgiveness or it’s about nothing at all” – Pastor and author Brian Zahnd. The problem is that the people who are most explicit in our culture in identifying themselves as Christian are not famous for forgiveness. If we are identifying ourselves with Christianity, which is about forgiveness or it’s about nothing at all, but we are not famous for our forgiveness, something has gone very wrong. We say we care about Christianity in America. We say we want our children and grandchildren to be able to live as Christians. But we have a problem.
The dominant, most visible public expression of public Christianity in America, evangelicalism, is in deep trouble. The us vs. them thing is killing us. We have adopted a paradigm of self-identifying ourselves as we are the righteous and they (pick your group) are the unrighteous, and we are going to react toward them by protest, by clenched fist, by furrowed brow, and this attitude and paradigm is killing authentic Christianity in America.
I can’t paraphrase or otherwise say this any better, so this is directly from Pastor Zahnd’s 2010 book Unconditional? The Call of Jesus to Radical Forgiveness. So I’ll just quote from it.
“When we choose to forgive those who intentionally and maliciously harm us instead of perpetuating the cycle of revenge, we become a living imitation of Jesus Christ. And as we do this, we flood a world hell-bent on paybacks with a forgiveness that washes away sin. The world is all too full of the lust for vengeance. This lust is ultimately demonic in nature and is what fuels all our wars – from petty personal conflicts to deadly world wars. Christians are called to opt out of the game of getting even. The saying is that “vengeance is sweet,” but vengeance is sweet only to the sick soul. To those who have tasted the grace of God in Christ, vengeance is bitter as gall. Bob Dylan talks about the perversity of calling revenge ‘sweet’ in his under-appreciated song ‘Dark Eyes.’
‘They tell me to be discreet for all intended purposes,
They tell me revenge is sweet, and from where they stand, I’m sure it is.
But I feel nothing for their game where beauty goes unrecognized,
All I feel are heat and flame and all I feel are dark eyes.’
Revenge is not sweet. It’s the heat and flame of hell and leads to the dark eyes of a lost soul. Those who would aspire to imitate Christ must feel nothing for the game of paybacks. The saying ‘paybacks are hell’ is true in more than one sense. Paybacks are not only hell for the recipient of revenge; paybacks are also hell for the executioner of revenge. It’s the lust for revenge that destroys our souls and keeps us chained in a devil’s hell of exponential hatred and endless retribution. The only way out is the imitation of Christ.”
Who are we imitating? Are we imitating Christ? Or are we dancing with the devil? Just what kind of light is the lamp of your soul beaming?
“”The eye is the lamp of the body. So, if your eye is healthy, your whole body will be full of light, but if your eye is bad, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light in you is darkness, how great is the darkness!” Matthew 6:22-23 ESV.
We read and pray Psalm 88 and we find that “my eye grows [dark] through sorrow…” Psalms 88:9 ESV. Some people have dark eyes from the sorrows they have seen in life. They say the eyes are a window to the soul. You can look in some peoples eyes and they tell a story, oftentimes a story that is sad. Some people have dark eyes because of the sorrows they have seen in life, we understand that.
But some people have dark eyes because of the way they look at life. Jesus talks about that in the sermon on the mount. “”The eye is the lamp of the body. So, if your eye is healthy, your whole body will be full of light, but if your eye is bad, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light in you is darkness, how great is the darkness!” Matthew 6:22-23 ESV. Jesus talks about the eye, how we look at life, being the lamp of our entire being. He says this in the sermon on the mount in the context of where he is talking about money. The text is bracketed by Jesus speaking about those who would be his disciples and how we view money. Right before this text, he says “For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.” Matthew 6:21 ESV. At the end of this passage he says “.…You cannot serve God and money.” Matthew 6:24 ESV.
So this dark eye that causes our being to be filled with darkness has something to do with a wrong approach to money. We could say it like this : there are those who go through life with the squinty eyes of greed. The squinty-eyed have dark eyes that darken their own soul because they have learned to look at life in the wrong way. We can look at life through the squinty eyes of greed, calculation, and cynicism. There is a way of looking at life through little slits, sizing people up, looking for an advantage, calculating, cynical, jaded, greedy. If you look at life that way, the light pouring into your soul is in fact darkness. We can look at life with the squinty eyes of greed, calculation and cynicism, but we end up with dark eyes and a dark soul.
Or we can look at life with wide-eyed wonder, love and acceptance. With our eyes wide open, wide-eyed wonder of love and acceptance, we have bright eyes and a bright soul. Some have dark eyes because of how much sorrow they have seen in life. But some have dark eyes because of how they shut out the light by how they look at life.
But the gospel message is this – Jesus can save us from both the dark eyes of sorrow and the dark eyes of cynicism. So that if you have seen so much sorrow and pain and suffering in your life, and you feel like your soul has been darkened, I want to tell you the good news that Jesus can come to you and heal you from your sorrows. He can give you bright eyes and a bright soul.
And if you’ve been looking at life through the squinty eyes of greed, calculation and cynicism, Jesus wants to teach you a brand new way of looking at life through the wide eyed wonder of love and acceptance so that you can have bright eyes and a bright soul…
Last time I wrote, I finished by saying that Jesus had to react so strongly to Peter’s rebuke (accusation?) at Jesus’s telling to the disciples that the Son of Man must suffer many things and be rejected by the elders and the chief priests and the scribes and be killed, and after three days rise again because this rebuke/accusation from Peter (You’ve got the wrong idea of what it means to be Messiah Jesus!) had the potential to put self-doubt in the mind of Jesus. And yes, Jesus could suffer from the temptation to self-doubt. To doubt oneself is a very human thing to do, and Jesus was very human of very human….and therefore subject to all the temptations we humans suffer with.
Was Jesus tempted with self doubt? I don’t know the answer to that question for sure, but it’s certainly possible. And I do know this – everybody doubted Jesus. And I do mean everybody. Think about the struggle this would cause for you and I.
Think about the struggle Jesus must have had with this. He was doubted by the chief priests, the scribes and the elders. Did this affect him? I don’t know, but they were the authorities, the scholars, the theologians, and they were saying Jesus, you’re vision is wrong. Did this induce any self doubt? I don’t know, maybe not. We’ll say that no, it didn’t.
Jesus was doubted by his own disciples. That’s got to hurt. He was doubted by his own brothers – “For not even his brothers believed in him.” John 7:5 ESV. Even worse than that, Jesus’ own mother doubted him. “And when his family heard it, they went out to seize him, for they were saying, “He is out of his mind.”” Mark 3:21 ESV. We read this and chuckle, but there’s nothing funny going on. This is a family intervention. Mary gets James and Joses and Judas and Simon, Jesus’ four brothers, maybe some of his sisters, and says to them “Jesus is mentally unstable. Your older brother is mentally unstable. He’s got these ideas and they’re just going to get him killed. We’ve got to intervene.” And they go to seize him because they think Jesus is suffering a mental breakdown.
Think I’m reading too much into this? Maybe. But let’s skip 10 verses later, and what does it say? “And his mother and his brothers came, and standing outside they sent to him and called him. And a crowd was sitting around him, and they said to him, “Your mother and your brothers are outside, seeking you.” And he answered them, “Who are my mother and my brothers?” And looking about at those who sat around him, he said, “Here are my mother and my brothers! For whoever does the will of God, he is my brother and sister and mother.“” Mark 3:31-35 ESV. We like to spiritualize this, I would say we over-spiritualize it. This is a serious family situation. Jesus is with a group of disciples, they had just tried a family intervention and they are coming to try again. Mom and the brothers send word in to Jesus that they are looking for him, and Jesus says what? “Who are my mother and my brothers?” Hmmmmpht. My brothers and my mother??!! These people that are hearing the word of God and doing it, these are my mother and brothers! Ok, when your mom calls you, just say “Who is my mother”, and let me know how that works out for you. This is a very tense family situation.
They don’t believe in him. They love him, but they don’t believe in him. They don’t believe he can go about being Messiah and live the Sermon on the Mount at the same time. He has this idea, somehow, that he’s going to liberate Israel and bring about the kingdom of God, yet not kill anybody!! Turn the other cheek and bring the kingdom of God? That’ll never work. That’ll just get you killed Jesus….and that’ll be the end of that.
Know what’s really heartbreaking, when you think about it?? Jesus went to the cross with NOBODY believing in him. They loved him, yes, but they did not believe in him. James loved him, John loved him, Peter loved him. Other disciples loved him. Judas, maybe not. Mary Magdalene loved him, his mother loved him. Yes they loved him. But they did not believe in him. They believed Jesus had missed it. He’d had the potential to be Messiah, he coulda been Messiah. But he clung to his lofty ideals, and now the whole thing is falling apart, and just like they said he went and got himself killed. And in the eyes of those whom Jesus most cared about, he was dying as a failure. Please try to imagine how hard that must have been…to go through all that with nobody believing in him. That’s why in the Garden of Gethsemane an angel had to come and strengthen him. He had to have a direct message from the father. You’re doing the right thing. Don’t give way to self doubt now. Don’t let those negative people and comments get through to your psyche and cripple you. Stay the course.
When people get into their head that messiah, Christ, is to be a certain way, it’s almost impossible to change it. If you try to change their idea of Christ, you will be subject to accusation. Even Jesus did not succeed in changing people’s understanding of what it means to be Christ until after his resurrection. They just could not accept, and their response was to do what Peter did, and accuse him of making a mistake.
When we begin to discover Christ in a deeper way, when we begin talk about Jesus in a different way, when we take the American varnish off of Jesus and show people that Jesus is not an American committed to the American dream and our superpower status, and that in fact the American way and the Jesus way are not the same way but are often at odds with one another, people might say all kinds of things about you. Just like his own countrymen said all kinds of thing about Jesus for showing that God was not just God for the Jews, but for Gentiles and the whole world as well.
But it was true. It’s still true. We need to come to see Jesus as he is, Christ for all, not just a nationalized Christ, the American Jesus. But this messes with peoples understanding of Christ and who Christ is. When we begin to rub that red white and blue varnish off of Jesus, people will not like it. People are very comfortable with that red white and blue varnish, start rubbing that off and people will accuse you of all kinds of things. Start rubbing that off, there will be star spangled trouble.
If you get accused, though, you can’t lash out. If you lash out, it just fuels the Satan, It gets worse and worse and turns into a hurricane. You forgive. You absorb the blow and forgive. Father forgive them because they don’t know what they do. If possible, you try to help them see what they are doing. But what you cannot do is let the accusation get into your head and become self doubt. Because what happens is you take the accusation up and begin to practice self accusation. You become your own Satan in your own head, and you go to hell inside your own head. Anybody else know about this? You become subject to unjust accusation, but you begin to take it up against yourself. You begin to accuse yourself. You idiot, you’re stupid. What in the world are you doing? Am I the only one?
It will begin to flood you with self doubt, you will be paralyzed, things will spiral out of control. We can’t lash out, but we also cannot afford to allow these accusations to lodge in our head and fill us with self doubt. How many if you have ever been the victim of unjust accusation? Might go all the way back to when you were five years old. Maybe your dad or your mom told you you idiot. You’re no good, you’ll never amount to anything. That was unjust. Nobody should ever say that to anybody, especially a child. Rationally you know it was unjust, not right, yet forty years later it’s still lodged in you. So now you take up against yourself. You say to yourself, you’re no good, you’ll never amount to anything. Maybe it was a parent, a brother, a friend, maybe it was an enemy. Maybe a boss, could be anybody. You’ve begun to be victimized by unjust accusation but it’s gotten into your head. And you need to pray like this – “Lord, give me the strength to be strong and true, because lord when the devil gets in my head I’m so blue…”. (From an Irish folk song…)
Never forget that the spirit of accusation is the spirit of Satan. It’s the un-holy spirit. The opposite of this is the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit is the spirit of advocacy. God says “I love you. I’m for you. I’m on your side. You’re going to make it.” You’re ok, and when you’re not ok it’s ok not to be ok. Bring it to the Holy Spirit, to your brothers and sisters who do the will of God and lift you up.